lettinggo

Well I posted last week for the first time, hoping it would get my behind moving, but it didn’t.  All I do is THINK about losing the weight, how wonderful it would be, how I would feel, and that’s about it.  I find myself making excuses for myself, like…..summer is already here, so why bother?  I can’t seem to wrap my mind around the idea that losing weight is not about reaching a goal and then stopping.  I never reach that goal.  I don’t know why I can’t learn that it has to be about lifestyle change.  I want to be healthy for the rest of my life, not be thinner for a certain event.  I always set myself up to fail.  As I weed out all my thoughts, I feel that I am getting closer, and thought maybe it would help to blog here and get my feelings out.  I REALLY want to make this happen. 

I am so excited, and scared to start a blog about letting go of the weight that I carry.  My weight has been through everything with me, and there have been some doozies!  I am excited because I “think” I have found the right place for myself.  This sight seems like the perfect place for me to express myself to others, to disconnect when I need to, to share and receive support and to start this journey.  I am scared because…..I have tried so many times, and fear keeps the weight on me.  Fear has convinced me that I can never do it.  Fear has stolen a LOT from me. 

 I am going to sink into this sight and hopefully gain so much motivation that I won’t be able to turn back!  As time goes on, I hope to continue blogging my progress, my thoughts and be motivating to others as they begin their journeys too.